One Year Older Again I suppose since I’m now turning 20, I should probably give a bit of a look back/forward on 2012. A lot of things have changed since January. After four years of trial and error, I decided to end my relationship with Eli. Though my reasons are private and mine alone to know, I did what I felt would make me happiest in the end.
That leads me to another subject entirely, however.
There’s a boy, well two boys really, that I had been talking to for a few months. One, I had an obvious crush on. The other was becoming like a brother. I then got news that nearly broke me completely. Slowly, the roles of the two began to change. The one became like a brother, or as I’ve labeled him, best friend. The other is now my one and only love. This did cause some drama, however, at this point it’s pretty much all settled. I’m so happy to have two protective males in my life that I know will stand behind me regardless.
As far as other changes, anyone that’s close to me knows how well school has been going. Or, as the case may be, not going. After I realized too late that I didn’t want to major in Chinese anymore, I pretty much gave up completely. I sunk into a depression, lost all motivation, and truthfully the only people I talked to were my Skype group. Only recently has everything started to pick back up, but it’s a bit late now to salvage my grades. I made the decision to not return to school in the fall, and instead to pursue a career in Jewelry Design and Repair, with my first step attempting to secure a full time position in a jewelry store. No word on this yet.
Apart from that I’m not sure what else to say. Turning 20 has really began to shift my perspective on things. I’m starting to see the world for the cruel mistress it is. But as long as I have those that love me beside me, I believe that I can push through this and rise above what I am now.
Cheers, everyone.
One Year Older Again
I suppose since I’m now turning 20, I should probably give a bit of a look back/forward on 2012. A lot of things have changed since January. After four years of trial and error, I decided to end my relationship with Eli. Though my reasons are private and mine alone to know, I did what I felt would make me happiest in the end.
That leads me to another subject entirely, however.
There’s a boy, well two boys really, that I had been talking to for a few months. One, I had an obvious crush on. The other was becoming like a brother. I then got news that nearly broke me completely. Slowly, the roles of the two began to change. The one became like a brother, or as I’ve labeled him, best friend. The other is now my one and only love. This did cause some drama, however, at this point it’s pretty much all settled. I’m so happy to have two protective males in my life that I know will stand behind me regardless.
As far as other changes, anyone that’s close to me knows how well school has been going. Or, as the case may be, not going. After I realized too late that I didn’t want to major in Chinese anymore, I pretty much gave up completely. I sunk into a depression, lost all motivation, and truthfully the only people I talked to were my Skype group. Only recently has everything started to pick back up, but it’s a bit late now to salvage my grades. I made the decision to not return to school in the fall, and instead to pursue a career in Jewelry Design and Repair, with my first step attempting to secure a full time position in a jewelry store. No word on this yet.
Apart from that I’m not sure what else to say. Turning 20 has really began to shift my perspective on things. I’m starting to see the world for the cruel mistress it is. But as long as I have those that love me beside me, I believe that I can push through this and rise above what I am now.
Cheers, everyone.
